My mind is killing me. I overthink every single little thing. I cry over the smallest thing ever. Yesterday was the day i fucked up my arm. i did so many cuts my arm hurts still. My friend hid all my knives so i can’t cut again. I need to cut again. I deserve it bc of the way i have been acting and thinking today. Im too extra sometimes and it pisses me off. I want to kill myself but why don’t i have the courage -__- i just want this to be over. I want to be gone
I do not understand why guys stop talking to me, like i am sorry i fuck things up. I am sorry i cannot handle a conversation, i am sorry i freak out and push you away because i feel you deserve better not a fucked up girl who is ugly and can barely handle being alive. I believe if too broken people find each other they can grow together and help each other overcome their fears.
I want to be with a guy. Every single time i have had sex with a guy, i am not expecting to just have sex, i am expecting something more too but nope, they just want to hook up and never talk to me again. It hurts, but all I want is a guy to like me back. that is all i am asking for. I really want to date this guy he is very nice but i know things will not work out, that is why you are trying ot get him away from me before i get too attached. Guess what? I already got too attached and whatever happens i am going to get hurt, if he only gave me a chance
